Im kind of stressed out. I have a lot of things that I need to get done here in the next week and at the moment I dont feel like doing any of them. Im in a good place mentally right now but im lacking a lot of motivation. Its like I can see the the reward of accomplishing my goals right in front of me yet Im not feeling up to poutting in the effort. I know its just a slump and I will bounce out of it shortly but its overwhelming. “They” tell you to make a list. So I think I will. Im just in a really hard place financially, with school, and socially at the moment and I know that it will be over soon but that doesnt matter right now. Im good at putting everything in perspective and dont get me wrong I can definetely see the light in dark places but that doesnt make it easier NOW. Im very slowly getting to where I need to be but I strongly believe that the next month of my life is going to be one of the most difficult periods of my life. Its a test. Ill get an A. And I will come out stronger.
I despise seeing people I’m friends with on fb posting links to their blog and being like “0mmmgzzzz follow me on tumblr!!!” I don’t know why I care but I do. Ill get over it haha. I got a job today. Yay.
And I dont really use it as much as I would like. I have been very focused on my other blog (fuckyeah-theuniverse) which has a vast amount of followers compared to this one. But sometimes I need to rant like I used to when I spent all my time on this one. Ive been living in Columbus Ohio for about a month and a half now and everything is going really well (for the most part) I feel like im getting in better shape and this is due to the fact that I have been riding my bike EVERYWHERE which has been awesome but its getting cold so thats not gonna last much longer. Major bummer. My classes are going well especially my psych class. I have learned a lot of incredibly interesting things that will rarely if ever pertain to my major haha. Im starting a website soon. Its kind of revolutionary and it consumes 50% of my daily thoughts. I feel like im in a really good place right now mentally even though I definetely am still fighting off lows pretty regularly. I think going to the gym more is going to really help. I feel like im not making friends as well as I should. Though I will be starting a job next week and I have started talking to a couple people in my classes so I think its just something that is going to come in due time. But im not dependent upon having friends. I do a lot of things on my own and i am content with that. Even when I was still living at home I did a lot of things on my own though I had lots of friends readily available to hangout. I think things are going to continue looking up for me as long as I stay on course. Stay classy tumblr. Stay classy.
My roommate is such a cunt! I didnt go out drinking with her last night because I had class early this morning. So she decides its a good idea to have over three dudes that she met last night and they are all just laughing and shit in the living room. This is at 4 in the morning and I couldnt fall back asleep so I have been up all damn day. I feel like im ready for bed and its only 1. Alls well that ends well though and my day will end in the perfect manner.
This whole week I have been so inspired. My motivation and my drive are through the roof right now. My vision is within arms reach and with one meeting I can launch. Im so close to beginning what will later be known as the biggest accomplishment of my life. I can almost taste it.
Has been an awesome day! I got a free t-shirt a free lunch and a call for an interview tomorrow. I’ve been really bumming about money which fucking sucks because money isn’t real. The only problem is everyone thinks it is so we must act accordingly.